wow... its been so long since i updated my page... well nothing has changed... i'm doing my student teaching... i loved teaching 3rd grade... i hated to leave but i had to... the students gave me so much candy for my going away present i think it would last me for a year or so... heheheh they were so cute...

love life... hahhaha i guess its going well... i have nothing really bad to say... he is treating me nice... even better than when we first hooked up... which is good...

well i hope everyone is doing well

Today i heard that one of my friend's dad only has a year left to live... damn i can't believe this... just last year my friend's mother passed away from cancer and now my other friend's dad is going...

My friend was going out with this guy for 8 fucking years and she did everything for him and his family... he did not have a job so my friend supported him and everything else... well now that he has a job (not a good one) his mother thinks that my friend is not good enough for him... and on top of that he feels that he could do better... this is such bull shit... i feel so bad for her... you don't know  how much she loved and still love him... even though he was a reallllllll dick to her, she was still there for him when he needed her... in every way... her whole family thought that they were getting married so they treated him like their son... and this is the thanks they get... yeah this might be a one sided story but he was a dick to her...

why do guys think that they are better than woman?  i know that there are some things that guys can do and a woman can do and that we could never really be equal... do guys really think that they could do better than their current girlfriend and they are waiting for the right time to leave her for a better one? i don't understand... i'm not saying that all guys are like this but so far most of the guys i have met always thought that they could do better than what they have... well new flash... you really can't... that is what you think... i hope that this guy realize this and come back to my friend so that my friend could have the opportunity to make him feel stupid... i hope she realizes that she could do better than him and she deserves to be treated better than what he has done for her in the past 8 years which was NOTHING.....

wow... its been so long since i updated my xanga... hehehe

nothing much is going on with my life... i'm student teaching and i'll be leaving buffalo this may.... yeah i'm so happy i'm leaving buffalo... my students are so cute... they are in 3rd grade and they are so sweet... however they are so slow in getting their work done... i have so much planning to do... i'm actually happy teaching... i guess i found what i want to do in life...

i want to get my Ph.D however people are telling me that i should work for about a year or so before i get my Ph.D... is that true or should i just go for it... i will get my Ph.D no matter what... but is it wise to wait a year??? i don't know what i should do and what is best for me.... yeah this is what i'm worried about... some people might think that this is bull shit stuff to worry about.... do i care... not really....

when we get older our relationship with the opposite sex change... we start to think about what is best for each other... start thinking about the future and everything else... wanting to get married and need to get married... hmmmm... i want to get married when i'm 30 after i'm done with everything i want to do with my life but is that too late.... i don't think so... i want to get married but i don't see the need to get married... i think that i would do fine even though i'm not married... is this because i'm still young???  i do feel pretty old... am i right in saying that marriage is a big part of life... i know that my mother would like to see me get married within three years but i don't see that happening... am i crazy... i want to make my mother happy but i haven't found the one person i would like to spend the rest of my life with??? should i be looking for one right now or should i just enjoy what i have now... i feel that i want to enjoy my life as it is but than another part of me is saying i should be thinking about the future because i'm not young... hmmm

  MERRY CHIRSTMAS.... AND ..... A....

                              HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!

wow... my last up date was in oct.  damn... its chrismas soon and a new year... where does the time go... i guess i'm feeling old... yes i'm old...

lets see... i have a new boyfriend... he treats me very nice... hehehe... one thing that i would want to change is that he won't be here for new years and on his own bday.. i won't be able to spend this holiday with him...but it's cool because there will be many more... heheeh (i hope so)...

For all those people who would be spending time with their love ones this holiday... have fun and enjoy...

Well this semester was my last semester taking grad classes... i'm done... yea.. i'm so happy... but i have to student teach next semest and i'm so scared... what if i do so bad that my cooperating teacher hates me... what if the students hate me or do something bad... hahhaha i guess i'm worried about nothing... well it is something to me because this would be my life... after i get my Ph.D... yea i'm getting my Ph.D... well i'm going to try...

the choices that we are faced with everyday is what makes life wonderful and at the same time makes u think if the choices you have made along the line was the right choic... sometimes i think back and wish that i didnt make certain choices but i can't take anyting back... the only thing i could do now is hope for the best and hope that the choices i made was the right choice...(on a side note...)Jimmy is a werid man...hehehe

why do people hurt each other and hope that what they did can be forgiven??  i don't understand some people... they know what they did was wrong but can't face the fact that they actually hurt someone special... but as long as they are happy they don't care... why is that???? sometimes i feel do hurt people but don't realize it... if i have hurt anyone i'm sorry i didn't mean tooooooooooooooo.......

well its late i hope everyone has a happy holiday... and a HAPPY NEW YEAR....